So I read a quote. “No atheist at sea” literally meaning that at the last moments of a person’s life he is not an atheist. Obviously, when you know now you can’t save yourself, you depend on someone else. That someone else, is God. When you are desperate for help you don’t think the methods of helping yourself instead you look for people who would help. When you’re stuck below something you don’t see the ways to push that thing up but instead you shout for help. I think that that is how people started believing in God, they needed someone to dependaround that God became religion. And from that religion they made stories. To have more belief in the God. People started to become needy, and someone to fulfill their needs, so what if the wishes don’t come true, they said you just have to ‘belief’. And when you believe that is the time when you will get your wishes granted. And slowly the people made a business around ‘God’. They started selling statues and books and pictures and opened up temples, started taking money which they called ‘donations’. That is the times everything went wrong when people started asking money in the name of God. Heck, even the beggar asks money in the name of God. It’s not wrong to belief. It’s when you make profit off that belief. And when they weren’t satisfied with one God they made more Gods, 330 million to be exact in just one country. I would think that’s a bit over the top. And yet, I write this on the way to a temple, not because I wanted to, but my family who believes in this God wanted to.
Okay, so today I was on a road trip with my mom and dad. We were just going for a day road trip because dad had some office work and my mom and I also went with him. I didn’t notice it on the way there because I was reading a great book named ‘ONE + ONE = THREE’ by Dave Trott. But what I noticed today was astonishing for me, if I am not able to convey my idea good enough just theorize. How it hit was that on the way back I was riding shotgun, and it was a two road with really small division between the two roads. And what I saw was almost hundreds of headlights passing every minute (it was a busy road), headlights were of cars, bike, scooter, buses, trucks, any kind of road transportation you could think of. And in every vehicle there was either one or more people sitting in the vehicle going somewhere. And my idea all these people that pass those people have different lives, a life really different and just the fact that there are 7,483,244,858 lives right now in this world. Just astonishes me. And all this on a little blue planet. (Compared to other heavenly bodies)
So, I was reading ‘Fault on our Stars’ (really great book) while I went to watch ‘Kaabil’ (really great movie). Both things about the idea of love, death and revenge. So, my brain just shifted on the idea of death. Of how a person can either go really slowly with pain and suffering and just die suddenly after all the pain, like cancer. Or, a person could just go, like in a car accident. And the second idea of a person just going from nowhere just astonishes me. I could just go down to the street to buy milk and bread and I could get hit by a car and die. Just die. Just go. That was it. That was my life finished because of a careless or drunk driver. And nobody would even remember me other than my friends and family. Because nobody else knew me. Because I didn’t get to do anything. Because I was only 16 when I died. So I couldn’t do anything. I couldn’t get a chance to go to college, get a degree, get a job. Or If I took the way to my dreams, I couldn’t make a movie, I couldn’t write a book, my article wouldn’t get in a big daily (read my ‘Dreams’ blog if you don’ get this). Well, in the end, I hope I don’t die early in my life.
My spectacles which I got about 2 years ago, when I got them I was really fed up with them. I didn’t want to wear them at all, ever. They were the only thing I hated the most. Many a times I forgot them intentionally, just so I didn’t have to bare the stress. I used with carelessness (not like I use them with care now). All the stress that I had to bare only, a person with spectacles can know. Fast forward to now, I can’t live my life without them. I have to have them with me twenty four seven. I have to take them to school, to watch a movie, even if am going out just for two minutes from the house. Even in the house, I use them all day, every day. This is a symbol of how life changes, of how people adapt. I hated my spectacles and now I can’t live without them. So, whenever a change comes around, embrace it, good or bad. In the end, you will adapt and your life will be better.
‘Dreams’, ‘Hopes’, ‘Motives’, such positive words that fill you with inspiration. Dreams, something everybody has in some form. I am sure even you have it. I have many. Sure I’ll tell you. Some are, ‘I can say to myself “I have been everywhere in the world I wanted to be”, ‘To write such an article in a big daily and above it written “By Saiyam Dhamija”.’ Another one is ‘To make a film that would move many and in the end it would say “Directed by- Saiyam Dhamija”.’ ‘To have a book that would inspire many and at cover it would be written “Written by Saiyam Dhamija”. ‘When I am in my 30’s I have a girl of my life to say to me “I love you Saiyam”. ‘When I am old my kids would think I am cool.’ And the most important to me ‘Just before my death I could say to myself “You did it Saiyam, you fulfilled your dreams, you did it all Saiyam, you did it” and I will work my hardest I could do to make these dreams a reality.
To see my inspiration for this article: https://youtu.be/BQ_z48aJD5o